Oh goodness

So I realsize that in life you fall in love a lot and get your heart broken a lot.  I wish that weren't true.  I know there is a difference between loving someone and falling in love with them.  I genuinely loved and cared for someone. A guy. And I was pretty sure I was falling for him.  Now he is out of my life. We don't speak or anything and I feel like he hates me but I have no idea what I did to him. I know it's wrong but I miss everything about him.  I hate this feeling more than anything in the world cause I know he is comepletely over it and having a good time with his life while I am still trying to get over him. It suckssssss.  I wonder why God puts us in these situations. I really do.